Monday, November 21

leaving.

because i know that soon, one day, someday, you will just be a memory, i will devote all of my senses to look at you from afar, to detach from the world that i thought we created together, albeit for just a moment, and just look at you with the fondness that i still have for you.


you see, the tragedy of detachment lies in its suspended sadness: in the poignant but painful memory of recalling how once, in a place that used to be familiar, you and i shared something that was beautiful, however brief it was, and no matter how fleeting, or impossible, it seemed to be.


you are beautiful, you will always be that in my mind -- but sometimes, the world does not operate by the parameters of the ideal, because most times, the paradox of attachment lies in being broken to the truth that not all beautiful things are made to happen, and even when they do, they do not last for long.


i shall devote all of my senses into observing intently, with all the attention that a child can muster, how everything is starting to be forgotten, and how, even with a resolution that seems to defy the intrusion of the extraneous, our tragedy is in the offing, and nothing, not even our fondness for each other, can stop the inevitable from happening.


stranger, thank you and i wish you the best in everything.

18 comments:

nubadi said...

your words, beautiful. your message, painful.

claudiopoi said...

because i think, sometimes the painful are the most beautiful, sir @nubadi.

Mac Callister said...

nicely written,and true,everything ends...good or bad. we just have to live and be happy we had it :-)

Manech said...

It gets better Clyde. At least that's what they say. Let's keep our fingers crossed, okeis?

Désolé Boy said...

Beautiful monsieur!
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Before I could spoke the same words, I was engulfed first by anger and revenge. And they are hard to come by nowadays.
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Brave.

claudiopoi said...

sir @mac callister, yes, that is my only consolation. le sigh.

@manech, sana nga, ie. nakakapagod na din kasi pag minsan eh.

salamat @desole boy, pero for what it's worth, nahihirapan akong isulat ang mga ganito. nakakalustay kasi ng enerhiya pagkatapos eh.

Anonymous said...

I see a thank you but no goodbye. Dare this stranger hope?

claudiopoi said...

sir @anonymous, i think goodbye is too explicit. thank you makes things lighter -- but in any case, i have long ceased hoping for hope when it comes to these things.

ıǝɹɯɐı said...

Sad and beautiful. I also believe in what you said that the most beautiful things are sometimes derived from pain.

claudiopoi said...

yes sir @iamrei, i'm glad that we share the same belief regarding that. but it's just tiring to approximate the beauty of pain minsan, it's so taxing and emotionally-draining -- no matter how beautiful it is.

Guyrony said...

How paradoxical is man that pain creates beauty.

claudiopoi said...

i believe there's a thin line that separates the two sometimes, sir @guyrony.

Anonymous said...

Hmm, are the two things mutually exclusive? Or do absolutes need not apply in this instance? More importantly, is the melancholic distance, and everything tangentially tied with it, perceived or is it real? Is it one-sided or is it mutual?

[]natGeo

claudiopoi said...

it's mutual, @natgeo. pero circumstances are not permissive. i don't think they ever will be. so adieu is more apt, and i think given the circumstances, it has to be mutually-exclusive -- mahirap magka gray area eh.

gillboard said...

isn't it amazing how sometimes something that is sad could also be beautiful.

not sure if this is something you need, but...

*hugs*

citybuoy said...

You broke my heart, Clyde. I'd say let's charge it to experience nalang pero ('scuse my french) bwakananginangshet, anlaki na ng mga account natin!

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claudiopoi said...

nyl, na-miss kita! :D